Nifty List Thing

The bf found this on line a few days ago and I wanted to share with everyone. Ta da Lists is a free service that offers a to do list that you can share with other users and it allows for an RSS feed to stream on your computer when you update it. Pretty cool so far and it sure does help when I forget to leave a list for the bf. He's not a mind reader you know, lol.

Saturday stuff

I elaborated a bit more on the birthday thing in the comments section. The bf starts his new job on Tuesday and finishes his last day at the office mega mart store of evil tonight. Trying to finish up a week of drama with his family and hope things calm down. Things will be busy enough once Session really kicks in. Speaking of that, this is my last week before I've got 12 weeks of meetings. Talk about a crash course in government work. This will be my 3rd session and I think I've got a handle on things. But like all else, that will wait to be seen.

I've got to go and figure out dinner right now so I'll catch you guys later. I'm enjoying the hum of the dryer with some techno on my last solo Saturday.

Another year older. . . .

And light years more jaded, cynical and sarcastic. Yeah, that's what it is in a nutshell kids.

Happy Birthday to me ;)

Monday's thoughts

"Life can be widly tragic at times, but whatever happens to you, you have to keep a slightly comic attitude. In the final analysis, you have got not to forget to laugh."

- Katharine Hepburn

And now for some various updates......

The bf got the job up here at the big house. He's rather excited to leave the office mega giant superstore retailer of doom behind him and work with adults now. Though it should be interesting for Mr. Nite Owl to be working the 6am-4pm shift. Heh heh, now he shall know my pain!

Speaking of the bf, his parents were shipped safely to Vegas. Hopefully the duration for which we have to endure to be asked if we've been to Vegas yet will be short. And equally as short hearing the stories of a trip we won't be able to afford for a very long time.

My derelict brother finally got his divorce finalized. That was only 7 months in the making. Now, shock of all shocks, he realized that the apartment that he lives in with his "whippy" gf is too expensive for him. Duh, I told him that it was at 1k/mo. I don't live in digs even half that nice. And now that he lives with her, he's trying to find a way to move out and dump her at the same time! I am telling you, when they were handing out common sense this kid got what was left before the next shippment made it in.

Some friends of ours (me and the bf) had their baby last week. Cute as a button as they say and I am really happy for them. Last year was very transitional for them and with baby on board, I know that this year is definitely starting on the right note!

I went to see House of Flying Daggers on Wednesday of last week and totally loved it! The colors, the story, the action -- what can I say? I was hooked. Now I've got to go back and watch Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon.

Well, I have to start working now for real. Catch everyone later!

The flavor of my angst

My angst tastes like...

VanillaSimple and true, your angst is just the amount of any normal person. What's more, you exercise an extremely honest and healthy way of dealing with it. Many people could use maturity and wisdom like yours. Your angst may be that you don't get along with your boss or a family member is having health problems, but either way it's always something transient and survivable that you cope with and use as a step on your way to becoming a better person. If there's one problem with your angsting, it's that you may tend to take this matter-of-fact, dutiful approach to all things. Maybe you should cut loose a little now and then so you can have some wild fun and adventure to balance out your angst. Remember that life needs its up as well as its downs and treat yourself to a little reward for your work.
Find your angst's flavor

A few changes

To start things off, this was on my calendar today and I wanted to share it:

Why does women's underwear always have lace and flowers all over it? You never see men's underwear with a big wrench in the middle of it.

-Heidi Joyce

I got such a kick out of that today.

Read more books, started new ones. Check it all out on the sidebar.

The bf interviewed for two jobs up here at the big house this morning. We thought that they were going to be temp positions but it turns out that there is one that is willing to offer a salary spot. We certainly can't afford to complain about that! I've probably already said too much but wish us luck on this -- we certainly need it.

That's about it for now. Had a busy but productive weekend. Can't believe I am stuck at work with 2 and a half hours to go still. Such a bummer.

Stuck in a rut

I kinda got inspired for this post by Vixen's latest entry.

Not that I didn't already know that my life was prone to ruttage, I just think that I am comfortable with accepting it now. One glorious step forward and two mind blowing steps back. You would think maybe just maybe I would learn from all of my experiences but I guess if I am experiencing this all over again, I missed the lesson.

What brought on this epiphany? Could have been the parental wake-up call last weekend or is it bitter realization of reality? My best guess if I had to take one is that my birthday is coming up (like two weeks away) and instead of just taking it in stride, I am going down the more morose path. Yeah, the one where I sit back and guilt myself into thinking that I haven't done enough. I probably haven't done enough. Right now I am in this cycle of vicious loathing of my job but a sense of duty to fufill the obligations I have set forth (most importantly not skipping out on my lease early). Would I like to move? Hell yeah. But I cannot rationalize a move to a new city without some sort of guarantee of income. I just couldn't shoulder the debt that I would be swimming in. For right now I am applying to jobs and hoping for the best. There isn't much more I can do. I can't just up and leave my job and think I could make it. No way. I would have to pick up three jobs and then risk the sake of my health to leave this resume booster. At the beginning of May or most likely beginning of June when my lease is up, I want out. Out of this town of empty promise. School acceptance or not, I don't think I can live in this town any more.

To put the cherry on top of this misery sundae I have to add that things at home are in an upheaval too. The bf was able to get more hours (big yay!) but they treat him like uber scum at his retail pit job and we both come home with crappy work stories. Not to mention we're on totally different schedules (me 8-5, him 12-10) which makes for lots of fun indeed. I used to work at the same retail pit that he did but had to quit so I could work for the man (b/c the man only lets you have one job during certain parts of the year). The bf's boss told him absolutely no personal calls while at work and that I can't shop at that store anymore. Seems that my five minute stop to get keys or to drop off food when he doesn't get a break causes an issue. Well the boss has got another thing coming if I need the bf's car to get something done and he's at work. But that is another story all in itself.

Chock this one up to a pity party for me. I feel a bit better now but this is far from over. I got the sign I need to move, now I just need the means to do so.

Random Thought

What is the straight within the bent?

ZEN KOAN


Kinda deep to me today. Gave me a good meditation topic.

Thoughtful Moment

When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.

Helen Keller

Happy New Year Everyone!

Sorry to everyone that I have been AWOL for the last couple of days. I took the time off from work to take time off from a lot of things just so I could refocus and recharge for new tasks to come. I am looking forward to joining up the digital world again when I return to work on Wednesday. As of right now I am session proofing my house. It's going to be a long haul and I want to be ready. Still no word from school, I don't find out anything until March. Sucks big time because I feel like I should be planning but I can't. Can't wait to break the news to the Landlord if we have to extend for just one month. Oh well. Life goes on and he'll get over it. Ok, dinner's burning and I gotta go. Just wantd to prove to you that I did not fall off the face of the earth. I look forward to chatting with everyone soon. Take care!